I remember my wedding day like it was yesterday. We had an intimate wedding with our closest family and friends! (We wouldn’t change a thing!) The morning of my wedding I remember vividly. I remember waking up with my sisters, receiving a phone call that my wedding photographer had gotten there hours before she was suppose to (She blew my mind that day!), having all of my cousins down the hall from us… it was a big family reunion. I loved every minute of it.
I wish I had breathed.
There are two things that I am not good at : having all eyes on me and relaying emotion.
That morning was just like we had planned. It was smooth. It was full of people I wanted near me during that time. But, I never took a minute for me to collect myself so that I could be in the right frame of mind.
Instead, I was very emotional. BUT. Because I hate being the center of attention and am not good with showing emotion, I choked it all down and didn’t show any the whole day. Not when I saw my Dad for the first time. Not when Cory and I had our first look. And the worst – not during the ceremony when Cory and I were saying our vows. I barely looked at him. Not to sound dramatic (because all is well two and a half years later. Lol!), but he remembers that really well. I couldn’t, though. I couldn’t hug my Dad when he first saw me, I couldn’t show too much excitement when I saw Cory for the first time… I sure couldn’t look at him when everyone else around us was crying during the ceremony. I couldn’t let my guard down because I knew if I did, it wasn’t coming back up.
I didn’t take a minute for myself before everything started to let myself be okay with everything I was feeling.
This editorial was based off of the morning of your wedding. If I could give any advice to anyone for the morning of their wedding, I would say breathe.
Gorgeously styled and florals : Studio Petali
Model : Piper